Getting my wits about me
Why is it so hard, some days, to get your mind around even the simplest tasks? Why is that life sometimes seems to absorb all of your energy and all of your ability and then spit them back out in confused little spurts of disorganization while taking all of your desire to accomplish anything?
I'm just having one of THOSE days today. Granted, we had a bad night around here last night. It didn't seem as though anyone slept well, but I can't let a bad night of sleep make me so ridiculously grumpy the next day. But here I am, Grumpy McGrumperson, all the same. I think that's one of the challenges of being at home with children full time. So often, even though they don't mean to, they are the cause of the grumpiness or the moodiness or what-have-you. Then, when you wake up the next morning, you don't have the opportunity to get away from the place/things/people that caused the frustration in the first place. So, there you are staring at the cause of your frustration, and you have no way of working through the emotions and thoughts. And it just builds up. Then your husband comes home from work and you, the kids, and the house look like something out of a Cymbalta commercial. Of course, if you're not keeping it together, then everyone else ends up grumpy, and by the time the day is over...... Good Gravy! There's not a pleasant soul around. And the poor little kids really have NO idea what in the sam hill is going on, but they know that the person they depend on for so much is quite the lunatic.
Bah. This too shall pass.... and all that. My poor mother is going to read this and get worried that I'm two steps from mental meltdown. But, hopefully, she'll just remember the days that she got this way and she'll know that now I understand. And I'll just keep repeating the mantra "I'm fine" and then I'll smile and eventually I will be what I'm pretending to be.
Then, I'll remember that the WHY of what we do will help us to get back to the proper HOW of doing it.
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You are not alone. This sounds a lot like me. A good night's sleep helps. Don't forget to talk to the Lord, and remember why you are doing this. If it is important, then it is worth doing. Nobody ever said it was going to be easy, but with the help of the Lord every day won't be like this.
Well, first off - give yourself a break, seriously, tell yourself it's "going to be O-K" and believe it!
Secondly, it's JUST KINDERGARTEN!!!! She probably already knows everything she "needs" to know for her age and I'm sure if there are any holes, that you're going to fill them up over the course of the year. One day doth not ruineth the year! Nor the child!
Some days in K, at a public school/private school, I'd be willing to be bet that they don't do much more than what it appears yours are doing in that picture.
Breathe! Get outside and get some fresh air - it does WONDERS for one's perspective!
Also, a question, do those little cherubs of yours have naptime still? I'm guessing Tooter might. What about Poodle? If not, QUIET TIME is your friend! Say it with me - QUIET TIME IS MY FRIEND. Seriously, while Mr. A takes his nap each day, the other children have "quiet time" where they are expected to stay in their rooms and read or play QUIETLY. Not to come out and ask me a bazillion questions or beg for drinks and snacks or any such craziness. That is my "haven" of rest for the weary during the day. I need a BREAK. Think about it - do folks that go off to workland each day have little people AT THEM all day long? Do they have people following them to the bathroom? or hovering outside the bathroom door talking to them, asking them for things, etc.? I could go on, but I think you get the point. If you don't have quiet time in your house - START NOW! If you do, well, I don't know what's wrong with you! Kidding :) Try getting outside more or just going in a room, closing the door and taking a few deep breaths before facing the wee ones again :) Some days are just like that! What's that old song....Mama said there'd be days like this, there'd be days like this my Mama said, etc. etc. I'd love to hear back re: my LONG comment :) Hope something helps!
http://www.homeeducator.com/FamilyTimes/articles/11-4article8.htm
I read this article frequently. And I knit. Both save me. If not, I would ship my children off to boarding school...you are doing an AWESOME job at providing just what your kids need. They need to be kids right now, and they can be scholars later.
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