Le Behbeh Update

Hmmm.  I guess, technically, that should be La Behbeh.  But since Behbeh isn't a word in any language anyway, at least spelled that way, it doesn't really matter.  And, I have to got to let go of the le's and la's and get comfortable with the el's and la's...  Poodle starts Spanish next year.  And I have taken nothing but French!

Sparkie in an "oy, vey!" pose.  Legs straight up in the air, hand placed oh so dramatically on her delicate forehead.  ;-)

ANYway (sorry for the mental derailment there), I had my sonogram checkup at the OB this morning.  Unfortunately, the bleed/clot/hematoma/hemorrhage has grown a bit.  It went up to 3.2 cm in length and a portion of it has gotten wider as well.  Something like 1.3 or 1.4 cm where it was below 1 last time.

But.  I haven't had any additional bleeding.  Sparkie is growing just as she should.  And she's extremely active with all the pieces parts seeming to be in place.  And the increase isn't huge.  So, while it's not great news that the blood clot has increased a little bit in size, I'm not too worried or even frustrated.  It's okay.  It really is.  If it is God's will for her to be born alive, she WILL be born alive.  There isn't a blood clot in the world that will stop that.  And, I have another 2 week pass from the OB before the next sonogram with the same orders of limited activity.  No bed rest.

There are a lot of summer plans that are on hold right now - all kinds of trips and reunions and church activities and I just found out about a family wedding the 2nd weekend in July.  Lots of things we want to do and may not be able to do.  And you know what - I'm not even stressed about it.  Usually, I'd be so worried about "what will people think if we aren't there or don't go" and "but it would mean so much to so and so for us to have the kids there" and "this only comes around every fill-in-the-blank years".  Now, I feel none of that.  Nothing is more important than doing what I have to do to help this baby gestate as long as she can without additional difficulties.  It's a good feeling, and it's the way I'm supposed to feel.  I have no idea if this is actually one of the lessons that God is teaching me through this challenge, but I'm grateful for it.  To lay down the worries of what everyone else wants and to focus on what's truly important.  I have always had problems with that.

Anyway, we are all doing fine and are positive and can feel the prayers for the peace that passeth understanding.  Thank you for those - for the entreaties that God is answering so abundantly.  We love y'all!